Process :: Feeling, Creatively Embodying Self in Imagery
Part of the experience, shooting people, has blossomed out of acquaintance with emotional states. This is what brings out that connection, how an image goes deep into you and you want to revisit it again, relatable humanness.
This process wasn't my 'natural' state of being. In the past, I was closed off and labeled as 'shy.' I know many of you can relate. This story, constantly being confirmed by others, made me believe, yes I am quiet, I am sweet, I am shy. And, hah, maybe I am. Yet, I am also full of depth in my spirit. I am stubborn, I am sensual, I am fierce, I am angry, and I am opinionated . All of this though, isn't the full truth. What could encompass it for me is a mantra I constantly reflect on, 'Surrender to Love.' It's all part of the exploration that happens when I really witness myself, and attempt to 'capture' it as an image. The nature of being human, in a body, with thoughts and feelings, and the relationship to Love.
Lately, I have been reflecting deeply on my relationship to this energy, which essentially is our source. It has brought me back into the process of self-portraiture. I go in and out of this practice, and it truly is powerful. I could go on and on about how I see it as basically the selfless practice of image-making. About how it tunes you in, it directs your presence, to a place where you can let go, if you let it. In my mind it is the antidote to the selfie culture we have in these times. IT allows you to be witnessed in a different way, at least the way that I go about doing it. A self-portrait is intentional. A self-portrait is revealing. A self-portrait is relatable, in a way that feels. When I practice this, and make it a daily part of my ritual, it becomes my process of connection to place, and to where I'm at, inside.
I recommend trying it out, use your phone if you don't have a nice camera. The phone is perfect, and will allow the same presence, if you set it up that way. Use the timer, set it on a rock or a tree and get in front. Be vulnerable, to you, and to your surroundings. Let the fear transform. OF being seen.